you're the reason I don't want anyone else.

so, what now? you don't feel like having a thing with me anymore after we spent the night together?
wow, just grow the fuck up.

I'm already scared of the end, although it didn't even start.

He asked me 'Can you stay with me tonight?'

 

I can't take it anymore. It's like you stole my life and I'm just a hallow shell without you. I promised myself I wouldn't let you do this to me again, but I obviously broke my promise. I'm sorry, me. I'm sorry for hurting myself over and over again. And heart, I know I lost you, but please, I'm begging you to come back to me. You don't belong in his hands, he throws you around, lets you fall and doesn't catch you. He breaks you into a million little pieces, and although it seems like he's fixing them every time he holds you and you look into his beautiful eyes.. he's only using you. And every more second  you stay with him instead of me, it's getting harder to heal you and try to make everything ok. So please, little heart, I know you best. I know you're naive and hope he's gonna fall in love with you and you can catch him before he hits the ground, but he's never going to fall for you. He's not gonna love you. He never did and he never will. So stop pretending like everything is ok. Deep inside and somewhere in the middle of all the broken pieces you know I'm right. Come back to me, I'll put you in the right place and promise I'll never let you go again.

I don't know why I can't just stop falling for your stupid ass shit, or when you got me back like a puppet in your hand. But this time, I'm not gonna let you fool around with me.

I never realized how different your life can be and how much you need to adjust your wishes and needs, 

when a person you never knew you could love, suddenly jumps into your heart.

just wrong enough to make it feel right

I don't need another heartbreak from you, baby.

I'd love to hear where you think we're going, 

because I seriously have no plan. 

No map, no speed limit, no clear road, just you and me.

give me something that will haunt me when you're not around.

If you stop being an asshole, I'll stop being a bitch.

it's all my fault. you won and you lost. you won your freedom and you lost me. i'm the loser here. i lost everyone's respect, but most of all i lost you. we lost each other in a fight no one could ever win. and i wish i couldn't remember what it was about. i cheated on you after you cheated on me. you cheating on me wasn't bad at all, but if i'm cheating on you everyone says i'm a whore. i'm not a whore. you're the only one who ever meant something to me and i hate to see you go. you're breaking my heart. i know you got every reason to be mad at me, but just keep in mind that you cheated on me first. and no, i'm not even trying to blame you for having me cheat on you. i could, but that would be stupid. i'm taking the blame on this one. you don't have to say anything, just know i'm never gonna forget you.

oh no, I don't want no more lies

and maybe there is a reason for everything that happened. 

and maybe there isn't one at all.

I want to hold these memories but you just throw them downI'm lost in between what else could be found?
when you're gone, nothing will be around meyou take everything when you're gone, your shadow on the wallIs all I wish I could see, just one memory.

What happened? Nothing's like it used to be. When I thought of you last summer, I had to smile, my heart skipped a beat and everything was sparkly and wonderful. I miss that little sparkle, that little piece of hope, inside of my by the thought of you. The smile broke, hope turned into the fear it will all be over soon and the sparks turned into sorrow. Where did the good times go when there was you and me and it was together til the end? Where did that feeling of true happiness go when I knew I was gonna see you? It all turned into the fear of losing you. But this fear is also relaxing me, because if this ends, you're just a memory.

i'm free. that's why,

                     i'm lost.

I may not be the most beautiful girl or the sexiest girl nor do I have a perfect body. I might not be everyone's first choice, but I’m a great choice. I do not pretend to be someone I’m not, because I’m good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things in my past, but I’m proud of who I am today. So take me as I am, or watch me as I walk away.

sometimes the best revenge is to smile, move on, and do nothing.

Sometimes I feel like it would all be better if I never got to know you. You put me through hell and back and now you're doing the same thing again to me. But then again, my life would suck without you. Even if you completely screwed me up, it was all worth it for those moments that will last forever in my head. And even if I'm never gonna be the same person like I was before I met you, you somehow managed to make my life worth living for more than a year by now. I wouldn't change anything and I would do everything like I did again.

to stop yourself from doing what only your heart wants you to, and everything else screams at you to stop, it takes more than courage. it takes more than asking yourself 'is this the right decision?'. it takes everything you've ever known out of you and you're gonna feel nothing. you're gonna feel emptiness inside of you. but believe me, it's worth it. the first days are the worst, after that it only keeps getting better!

Now I know the reason I'm so heartless.. it's because you stole my heart with our first kiss!

I'm worth more than some stupid ass booty call. You don't get to lower my self-confidence, 
I know what I'm worth and I'm gonna get it.

it's the same old story all over again. I don't want anything to hold me in this town. I wanna break free and be something, I wanna be someone. Someone people will remember as a good girl, not the girl who gets drunk and is a slut. I want changes, and I expect you to accept my changes. You're the reason I'm bad. You're the reason everything I do is being questionned by myself. You're the reason I'm still in this town. You're the reason I drink alcohol to be brave enough to talk to you. You're the reason I stay up until 6 AM and don't sleep the whole night to wait for a txt from you.. nothing. You're not worth it anymore. You're not gonna see me for a long, long time, because I'm not gonna fool around anymore. Why even try to see you if I already know I'm not gonna talk to you if I'm not drunk. I'm done with this shit. Go find someone else, you don't get to play me anymore