hey, thanks for reading. this is gonna be a long text, it is about a boy i made out 6 days ago who wanted me to trust him and have sex with him, but i didn't do that. You never said Hi, you never even looked at me, 'til that evening you talked to me the next day you invited me, you were so charming, so flirty you wanted to go swimming with me naked at night, I promised myself to not believe in you, should've known better you're that sunnyboy every girl flashes about, who knows how to get everything but I wasn't like the others. I am different. You found out when I didn't let you in, I said I don't trust you, I didn't want to tell you all my secrets, you almost dragged me to sex, but I knew better. You said you'll call me, we should do this again, and now ? You never called me! You never even tried to talk to me! I was that happy for 4 days, 'til I realized you're just like all the other assholes making my life more complicated then ever. But you know what? I won't breakdown, I'm too strong, too proud to let you see how hurt I am. Search for your model, I go and fetch my luck 'cause I will be happy even if you're not by my side not holding me in your arms not kissing my lips not touching my body I thought I could trust you tell you most of my secrets when I once asked do you wanna be the boy i tell all my secrets to or the one all my secrets are about you smiled and kissed me and whispered i love the way you are now it's over and I'm done I'm lyin' on the floor can't forget how we used to be can't forget all these kisses, touches, the night you're gone. And I don't know why you left me all alone, not answering my questioning eyes. 2 days later you smiled that smile i love, but then you stopped looking at me you stopped making me feel fine you make me feel insecure again you were fooled by these innocent eyes but baby you should've known better i'm a liar, I can't pretend I'm too cool for love anymore. I wish I could go back, and if I saw a wishing star, I'd wish you'd love me. You'd never leave me. We could be happy, we could have everything we'd ever dreamed of. you made me feel so fly so high so fine i still can't believe you left there's a big hole in my chest, barely beating, barely breathing never thought i could feel something like that again never wanted to be in love again never wanted to be hurtable again i made this mistake before, I should've known better I'm not ready for something new, but you had that look upon your eyes.. But what I know, is, I am here. I am here without you and that feeling of emptiness is killing me.