long time

awwww so much to tell! x
superstressed so pardon me for this break.
he and me, 'we'. i love the sound of 'we' while thinking about 'us'..
we've met 2 times again.. and now it's almost over. everyone knows about the thing between him and me, and he hadn't had any time and everytime something went wrong. now he's on vacation in tunisia and i'm sitting here. i'm away for more than 1 year. not gonna see him. he's afraid of saying goodbye and he's afraid of missing me :c so all he wants to do is to get over me, and i'm all alone. i miss him so much. i miss him just like the air i breathe :/ and i can't imagine myself without him.. it's just like i need him to be me, to be whole. it doesn't feel right to be without him, i can't think straight anymore.. all i do is think about him, think about 'us'. i really wanna know what's next, because i don't have any clue :/ i need him with me, right now. here.
i remember every little thing he did to me.. we lied in my bed, i told him something crazy and my eyes looked magically at him, he came soo close face-to-face, nose-to-nose, looked me deep in the eyes and said 'you're crazy' and kissed me. i felt so good. so happy. so overwhelmed.. when he said 'bye' he couldn't even look me in the eyes.. it hurt so much. and it still does. i cried the entire night, i'm sick since he left and i feel like i won't ever get over it.. i didn't want to feel again, this heart has had enough.. and now look what happened, i'm at the end of me