Today I realized he still means the world to me. I would give up so many things, just to see him.

And I saw him today. I was skyping with my best friend, his sister and he came to see her computer. He didn't know I was watching them. He looked terrible, but I didn't care. That makes me even more realize how truly in love I am with him. Just seeing him was so good, even though he didn't talk to me or knew I was there, it felt so good. All I can say is it was amazing, in a creepy way.