what if all you want to do is giving up? giving in? I feel like it's gonna be a long night, crying in the bathroom and finding myself in the morning on the floor. I can't do this anymore, I don't want to be the girl every guy keeps as a secret. I want to be loved, I wanna be hugged from behind, I wanna be kissed in public, I wanna hold hands. Secret love has its magical feeling, but I'm getting sick of it